So for the longest time, this blog came to a halt. I lost my way. I was torn between carrying on what I have started or take a complete change from what I used to believe in. So while I searched far and wide looking for that bit of spark, I came across countless opinions of what one should do to make oneself happy for instance, the cliche "do what makes you happy even if it means leaving your job, travel the world, volunteer, declutter and throw/donate your stuff away (which I did, best feeling ever), live in the mountains, plant trees, make your own food, stop eating dead animals (which I did but doesn't really make you better than anyone else), live small, live a simple life, be content. But you know what's wrong with all these? All these are telling you to live someone else's life. To quit living for yourself, to give up what you already are and pursue someone else's spark. And pursuing another's joy is definitely one that will kill your fire.
So finally I came to a resolution that there is no quick way of finding joy (if only life is perfect). You can beat yourself or breathe, but you can't simply walk out of your life to go after a catchphrase and if you ever do, it's not going to be easy. You don't have to deny yourself of the little things that truly make you happy just because someone else says they can or you can't ( Eat that cake for cat's sake!). You don't have to quit living your life and beat yourself up chasing someone else's life just because they seemed happy. You will eventually get there, you'll see. You just have to trust that you are capable of being happy yourself and that you can stop explaining yourself for the choices you make. You can't always ride the donkey, Can you? so stop being guilty of not pleasing your crowd because you can't and you don't have to.
There's only one truth in the universe and that is, we can't just sit and wait for joy to happen. We will always want something that will bring purpose and reason to thrive because that is the only way we survive. So we get back on the saddle, cross the tight rope and hop on the damn circus. Well, I'm just saying I'm finally back and trying so hard to crank up this ol' brain o' mine and heat it up full throttle. YOLO so don't postpone joy.
See you in a bit ;)
Shannel